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Domestic Silence Virtual Book Tour

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Domestic Silence by Tut Yashar is a powerful poetry collection that
gives voice to the quiet battles many endure but rarely share. Written over
the span of 18 months, these poems weave a deeply personal yet universal
journey of survival and resilience in seek of liberation.

Through raw honesty and lyrical rhythm, Tut Yashar explores themes of love,
loss, injustice, silence and happiness. At its heart, this book reflects the
emotional reality of abuse—not only the pain itself but also the
loneliness, judgment, and shame that often follow. Each poem is both
confession and release, inviting readers to feel seen, validated, and less
alone in their own struggles.


Domestic Silence
is not just about one story—it is about many. It speaks
to anyone who has felt trapped, silenced, or invisible, whether by
circumstances, relationships, or society. It reminds us that healing is
possible, that freedom can be reclaimed, and that our voices deserve to be
heard.

Whether you are a survivor, an ally, or someone seeking deeper understanding
of the human condition, this book offers hope, comfort, courage, and
connection.

 

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EXCERPT

“Your abuse is an explosive nucleus in my core.“

 

“I am far from free,

And my mind is free.”

 

“My voice is a bell not rung.”

 

“I know there are eighteen holes altogether

And that people play in any weather.”

 

“It’s hard to hide when I need to feel empowered.

I can’t be a coward.

It’s all up to me.”

 

“It’s not enough to simply survive

Even more than before, I want to thrive!”

 

“I so need a break,

And a big piece of cake.

Yet I’m not in the mood for a cake: 

I have an ongoing ache.”

 

“I have no regret.”

 

“When things seem quieter, fear rises;

I tend to think it’s a bait.”

 

“I’m one out of three.

Nothing special about me.

It’s a new reality.”

 

“It’s hard to hear my own voice,

People have so many things to say.”

 

“I had big plans, to be on stage.

Now I have to spend my time in a cage.

I have dreams from which I refuse to disengage!”

 

“I can’t be merciful or frail.

I can’t break and I can’t fail.

I have to be strong and prevail,”

 

“Mercy and logic are at war.

I’m confused as to what is the score.”

 

“The plot unfolds as time passes by.

I’ve suffered enough and I’m ready to fly.”

 

“I don’t want to fight

And I don’t want to die.”

 

“There are no needs in my life,

I have learned to live near death.

Every day, I choose life.”

 

“I lost an abuser

And gained my life.”

 

“It’s me and my baby and a Hurricane.

I’m not concerned.

I can protect my child.

Look what I survived.”

 

“Now,

I am the protector

Of our home.”

 

“Words are not enough

For this poet.”

 

“I wanted his protection,

But he hurt me the most.”

 

“The abyss between us is deeper than his love.”

 

“I think I have had enough.

My life doesn’t need to be rough.

Yes, I am very tough,

But I’m here on this earth to laugh.”

 

“I love my life, and I want to live.

Therefore, I always try to forgive,

Yet sometimes I must be combative

So that I can continue to grow.”

 

“I’m tired and I’m afraid to drain.

I don’t mean to complain,

Just to explain.”

 

“I feel this passive tension,

Like my heart is under oppression.”

 

“Can poems even deliver

The wounds of a loving giver?”

 

“I hear in paradise,

There is no ice.”

 

“I am battling for my freedom.”

 

“Where do the bees hide when it rains?

The wind blows hard as I pick my brain.”

 

“Being a good leader requires the ability to intricately balance between multiple elements.

One must accept analytical concepts, and also sentiments.”

 

“Fear doesn’t stop me.

I have cruise control.”

 

“People who don’t acknowledge equality

Never feel peace and are bound to destroy.”

 

“From time to time,

I panic within.

I remember what

Happened

To me.”

 

“I want my voice to be heard!

Word for word.

Severe expressions, not slurred.”

 

“My heart loudly sings my story of violence.

No power on earth can keep me in silence.”

 

“I feel quietude admiring

What I cannot possess.”

 

“It’s a sunny day,

And I want to be out.

But I’m not okay,

Can’t go about.”

 

“The horror I’ve been through isn’t visible.

I believe I seem somewhat invincible.”

 

“Shame, shame, I feel shame.

My heart drips tears, and it’s also in flames.”

 

“… forgiveness becomes

The Achilles heel

Of a fool.”

 

“When you’re away,

I love you freely.”

 

“My pain

Is private.”

 

“To keep myself safe, I felt had no choice

But to remain in silence and nullify my voice.”

 

“I want to be safe from harm, free of his torture.

I want to feel I have the time to self-nurture.”

 

“I represent good, 

But still, I am at war. 

So, am I good?”

 

“Anger eats through the body like rust through steel.”

 

“I watch the birds dancing in the sky.

Oh, to be so joyous.”

 

“A predator

Is chasing me”

 

“I have a story to tell. 

I want to tell it well. 

In strangers, I am confiding.”

 

“I’m alone under a threat.

I have no outlet.”

 

“God is at my side, and I can tell, 

Even through hell, I acknowledge well 

How blessed I am.”

 

“Here, after hours 

I’m building towers.”

 

“Teddy bears in my living room.

A memory of a woman diva.

Makeup rots in beautiful containers.“

 

“If sorrow had a face,

It would be mine.

I pretend to be,

But I am not fine.”

 

“I miss so many people

Who are here.”

 

“Background music reminds me of my alienation.”

 

“No selfies for the selfless”

 

“No one is here to protect me

I can only rely on God

And be thankful to be alive.”

 

“Can beauty coexist with terror?

I don’t know when I look in the mirror.”

 

About the Author

 Tut Yashar

 Tut Yashar is a poet and advocate for self-fulfillment whose words shine a
light on the hidden corners of the human experience. With a background in law,
finance and operations, she blends analytical precision with raw emotional
honesty to create poetry that resonates deeply with readers. Writing has been
her lifelong companion, a source of healing, and a way to transform pain into
strength.

Her work explores themes of freedom, resilience, love, and the silent
struggles we often carry alone. Tut’s poetry speaks to anyone who has
ever felt unseen, unheard, or silenced—reminding them that they are not
alone and that healing is possible. Domestic Silence is her debut published
collection, and she is also the author of two forthcoming poetry books.
Through her writing, Tut strives to inspire readers to embrace their voice,
reclaim their power, and discover self-fulfillment in the face of life’s
challenges.

 

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Book of Me Virtual Book Tour

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The Life and Times of Kevin Hipes, the New York Forrest Gump

 

Memoir

 

Date Published: July 24, 2025

 

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From the streets of Queens to the deck of an oil tanker in the
Caribbean—meet Kevin Hipes, the real-life New York Forrest Gump.


Book of Me
is not your average memoir. It’s a laugh-out-loud,
tear-in-your-eye, one-of-a-kind true story collection from a man who has lived
more lives than most of us can imagine. Factory worker. Hippie. Banker.
Entrepreneur. Rockstar (sort of). Preacher. Politician. Oil tanker owner.
Cancer survivor. Bipolar truth-teller. Kevin Hipes has worn all these
hats—and more.

Told with warmth, humor, and heart, Kevin’s stories come alive in this
unconventional autobiography. Originally recorded as a series of YouTube
episodes on his channel Planet Hipes, these 66 episodes have been transformed
into a compelling, easy-to-read book that invites you to laugh, cry, reflect,
and recognize a bit of yourself along the way.

What you’ll find inside:
✅ Hilarious tales from childhood in Queens
✅ Life lessons learned the hard way—and the funny way
✅ Private struggles and surprising triumphs
✅ A faith-driven journey of self-discovery and humility
✅ A reminder that we’re all “special” in our own unique way

Whether you’re looking for a good laugh, a touch of inspiration, or a wildly
entertaining ride through 70 years of true-life adventures, Book of Me will
leave you smiling, thinking, and maybe even saying, “Hey, I’ve got
a story like that too.”

📺 BONUS: After reading the book, head to Kevin’s YouTube channel Planet
Hipes and experience the stories told by Kevin himself—animated, real,
and unforgettable.


Because life’s not about the destination—it’s about the
journey. And Kevin Hipes has one hell of a story to tell.

 

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We Used to love Harry‘s press conferences when he was going to build the tallest tower in the world in Newark, New Jersey with a monorail connection to Manhattan. The reporters said, “Mr. Grant how did you decide to make the tower 121 stories?” Harry said, “Because 21 is a lucky number, blackjack!

 

 

About the Author

 

 Kevin Hipes

 Kevin Hipes is a born storyteller, lifelong entrepreneur, and proud New Yorker
with a personality as big as the adventures he’s lived. Often called
“the New York Forrest Gump,” Kevin’s life has taken him from
the streets of Queens to the pulpit, to business boardrooms, and even to the
deck of his very own oil tanker in the Caribbean. As Kevin often says
“Forrest owned a shrimp boat, but I owned an Oil Tanker and my story is
true!”

With no formal writing background, Kevin still managed to turn a lifetime of
unbelievable experiences into a heartfelt, hilarious, and deeply human
book—Book of Me. Rather than writing in the traditional sense, Kevin
recorded over 100 personal episodes for his YouTube channel, Planet Hipes,
then compiled them into a unique memoir filled with wit, wisdom,determination,
and raw truth.

As an uneducated street kid from Queens, Kevin has lived many lives from
factory worker to Hippie, to rockstar (almost), banker, preacher,
restaurateur, politician and more. He shares not just the ups and downs of a
seven-decade journey but speaks intimately about being a cancer survivor who
also struggled through and dealt with a bipolar disorder, keeping the high
energy manic side while overcoming the devastating depressions that plagued
him through most of his life. You will find Kevin’s faith in God,
unrelenting positive mindset and sense of humor make for a powerful story
boldly told in his own words.

Kevin currently lives in Orlando, Florida, where he owns and runs HCB Real
Estate, a retail commercial brokerage and development firm. Book of Me is his
debut memoir and a testament to the power of authenticity, faith, and
self-deprecating humor.

Follow Kevin’s stories on YouTube: Planet Hipes and experience the
animated storyteller in action.

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The Well-Tempered Violinist Virtual Book Tour

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Book 1 of The Gift

 

Historical Fiction

Date to be Published: November 5, 2025

Publisher: Acorn Publishing

Marthe Adler dreams of making history as a great violinist. But in 1905
Germany, tradition and deep-seated prejudice against women musicians stand in
her way. To make matters worse, her beloved father’s sudden death
shatters her family’s comfortable life, pushing them to the edge of
poverty.

But the violin Marthe’s father left her is a constant reminder of the
profound bond between them, and it gives her the strength to begin healing.
When the Köln Conservatory offers her an unexpected scholarship, she
seizes her chance to reach for excellence.

Under the rigorous tutelage of Professorin Wolff, and subjected to predatory
harassment by a fellow student determined to destroy both her self-worth and
her chances of success, Marthe quickly learns she will need more than
motivation and talent to rise to the top.

Filled with heart, wit, and music, The Well-Tempered Violinist is an enduring
coming-of-age tale about an artist striving for greatness against enormous
odds.

 

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FEBRUARY 1949, HEIDELBERG

In the very beginning was the sound, bright and rich, with an edge of darkness. 

I knew it before birth, my mother said, for whenever my father played, I became still in her womb, as if I were mesmerized.

In the sitting room of our house in Eberlinstrasse, I became the audience, propped with pillows before I could sit up, listening to my father and his friends play string quartets on Saturday nights—for love, he said, not money, for he was a banker, though as a young man he had studied with the famous Schradieck in Hamburg. Later, he told me I never fussed, never had to be removed, but remained transfixed, no matter how rough the music nor how often they repeated it. So perhaps my mother was right.

***

The second beginning was my fourth birthday, when my baby sister Anni stuck her fist into my birthday cake when no one was looking and my grandparents gave me a music box that played “Papageno’s Magic Bells” from The Magic Flute, which I listened to until everyone but me was sick of it. Best of all, my father gave me my own small violin and began to teach me its mysteries. First, the names of the strings and their personalities: A, sensible and even-tempered; D, cheerful and impetuous; down to G, serious and thoughtful; up to E, nervous and temperamental, with a tendency to squeak. How to tune them, how to find the notes and make them pure instead of scratchy. He turned exercises and drills into games and improvised harmony to my children’s songs, something different every time. Alle Meine Entchen, All My Ducklings. Bruder Jakob, a round. Kleines Mädchen, Little Girl—my favorite, because it was about me

I practiced every afternoon for my evening lesson. Occasionally, with nerves like caterpillars in my stomach, I played for the applause and praise of my father’s friends. I might have thought all children were as docile as myself, if not for Anni. Anni’s temper tantrums, Anni thundering up and down the stairs, Anni meddling with my toys and often breaking them. I couldn’t imagine where my parents had found her, or why. Someday, I thought—preferably soon—she would run off to become a pirate and leave us in peace. 

The pirate would surely come to no good. But I dreamed I would become a famous violinist and lead an exotic and sophisticated life on the concert stages of the world. 

***

When I outgrew my first violin, Anni inherited it and my father began to teach her—at least, he tried. Anni never practiced and she hated lessons of all kinds. The experiment was short-lived and a spectacular failure. 

I felt horribly smug for weeks.

My father and I shared a secret language, a world full of treasures where Anni couldn’t stick in her fat little fist and grab anything and where my mother didn’t care to go. A bond grew between us as between two fibers of the same tree, pure and deep. . .

***

 

MARCH 1906, KÖLN

Both of these beginnings came before the real one, like the prologue in fiction.

The third beginning, the real one, is now: a cold March morning a month past my eighteenth birthday, before the grand front door of one of the grandest houses in Köln. Herr Dietrich keeps a firm grip on my elbow, probably to keep me from running away. In my other hand, I carry my violin in its case. This house, on Leopoldstrasse in the heart of the Lindenthal district, belongs to Herr Ferdinand Kurtz, president of the Bank of Köln. My father’s bank.

Yes. It begins here. 

The violin I carry is my father’s, because he is dead.

 

About the Author
Barbara Thornburgh Carlton
Retired architect Barbara Thornburgh Carlton is an author of fiction,
nonfiction, and poetry. Though not a musician, she remains music-adjacent as a
volunteer for the San Diego Opera and the Orcas Island Chamber Music Festival
in Washington. The mother of two grown children who are remarkably considerate
about keeping in touch, she lives in San Diego, California, with her
photographer husband, Barry.

The Well-Tempered Violinist, Book 1 of The Gift series, is her first novel.

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To Eternity and Back Virtual Book Tour

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Nonfiction

Date Published: June 24, 2025

Publisher: BlackBox

The Multiverse comprises different realms of reality as apparent in its
map.
The first realm is made up of different kinds of substances with
specific powers. These range from the world of pure matter (quantum fields) to
various embodied forms of life, consciousness and rational thought (microbial,
botanical, mammalian, et al.) to the world of pure spirit (angelic).
The second realm encompasses the agents who “operate” the substances.
These range from unicellular microbes to plants to animals to human beings to
angels.
Then there is the realm of purpose, beauty, the virtues, right and
wrong, good and evil.
Finally, we have the worlds that will never end: Plenitude on the one
side, Heaven; and Void on the other, Hell.
Our journey through the Multiverse begins with the Mission Control
Center.
Here we find the Source of all that exists, we discover that Its Life
has no beginning or end and, finally, that It is Tri-personal, Three Centers
in One infinite Mind and Will.
Next, we explore the Metaverse of Mind, the cosmos in which we live with
its five domains of mind.
Underlying the Metaverse is the MindField, infinite-eternal Mind.
We then move to the world of Homo sapiens, the highest form of mind in
the physical world.
From there we go to the realm of pure minds, the world of good and evil
spirits/angels.
Next up is the religious history of humanity that culminates in the
Incarnation of Infinity and the descent of the divine Spirit.
The Incarnation bestowed on Homo sapiens the God Gene, the Life of God.
Those who live with the divine Life offered to them enter into eternal
ecstasy; those who reject it suffer the endless agony of separation.
Finally, you will meet your Secret Lover.

 

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Takeoff

Let’s say today’s the last day of your life. 24 hours and you’re history. Dead. So, what’s your “end”-game?

 

If you didn’t know you had an expiration date, this is the guide for you. A ‘how-to” manual. 

 

A “how-to” for the end of the world––YOUR world. For tomorrow you’re going to lose all the things that “everyone” thinks important: dwelling, family, job, possessions. Everything and everybody. Gone for good. Gone!

 

It doesn’t matter if you’re a billionaire or a bum, a celebrity or a nobody, an introvert or a people person. There’s no escaping the end of your story.

 

Oh, if this is “getting to you,” if you’re thinking of hanging up or switching channels––don’t!  None of this is hypothetical. 

 

You’re going to die no matter what. For sure. The “tomorrow” could be 10 seconds or 109 seconds from now. You can’t know. Which means you need to be always “ready.”

 

So let’s head to the boarding gate.

 

Oh, and by the way, my name is Melchizedek. You can call me Mel.

 

Flight Announcements

 

Welcome aboard the flight to “the other side.”

 

We haven’t taken off yet. Time for the safety instructions.

 

So here’s a checklist of items that are entirely irrelevant “going forward”: 

  • date of birth
  • country of citizenship
  • constitutional rights
  • human and all other “rights” 
  • separation of church and state 
  • legal problems and issues 
  • frequent flyer miles 
  • bank account balances 
  • mortgage or rent payments 
  • stock market holdings and investment portfolios
  • employment status 
  • health and life insurance policies
    health condition
  • education level
  • personal and professional accomplishments
  • expertise in science or economics or computer programming or any other domain
  • academic reputation
  • entertainment or music industry or sports world achievements
  • influencer status
  • wokeness
  • gun rights
  • sexual orientation
  • gender identity
  • reproductive rights
  • climate change
  • becoming a billionaire
  • business building prowess
  • super AI

 

OK, now perhaps you’re mad, beside yourself.

 

At least I’m not a loser, you say. I tried my best. Even if I didn’t think about the “end,” I still lived life to the fullest. So what if it’s all temporary? Better to do something with the hand you’re dealt than to sit around moaning and groaning about the end. I have no regrets and no one’s going to “shame” me for not sinking into depression and despair.

 

Well, excuse me!

 

Sorry partner! Nothing personal here. This is not about the way you lived your life–at least not yet!

 

It’s about facing reality at every level. And we’ve only just begun.

 

Let’s look at it from another angle. Like it or not, you’ve been brainwashed, snowed, taken to the cleaners. You’re living in an illusion. 

 

And it’s easy to demonstrate the deception. 

 

People joke that you can’t take “it” with you. Except it’s no joke. It’s a hard fact that when “you” die, your earthly possessions remain earth-bound. Equally, it’s a hard fact that you will die. Finally, in a ten plus billion-year-old universe, all of recorded human history, a few thousand years, is a nano-second. Here for an instant, gone tomorrow, forgotten forever. 

 

Like it never was.

 

But does anyone speak of this? Do you think of it? No. Not ever.

 

You hear the news, go to school, get a job, all the while never being told about the oblivion right ahead. 

 

There are no cover stories, blaring headlines, breaking news bulletins, viral social media posts, power-packed podcasts, about the one thing that matters most: the imminent and all but immediate end of everything. 

 

You’re going full speed ahead–to nowhere!

 

Doesn’t anyone know? Anyone care? Total separation, total aloneness, total end. Inexorable. Inescapable. In your face.

 

This is Reality 101.

 

Been There, Never Done That

 

OK, enough about you.

 

It’s time to check out the Seven Stages of Grief table–shock, denial, anger, bargaining, depression, testing, acceptance.  

 

Take shock, denial, anger. 

 

Shock – The abyss of annihilation is headed your way. Unthinkable yet undeniable.

Denial – Let’s not think about it. Eat, drink and be merry.  Merry?

Anger – Who brought up this topic? Focus on the here and now. Abstractions are for losers.

 

Well, here’s the bad news. No matter how much you deny it or how angry you are, you can’t escape “death’s dateless night.” Check the obituary section. Even as you read this sentence, over one hundred people have left us. And you’re on the same hit list.

 

Everything you’ve achieved and become is destined for decimation. It will be as if you’ve never been. The here and now is here now but gone forever tomorrow. No, “you” don’t actually live on in your legacy or your family. You as an individual will not make it once your time has come.

 

So, snap out of it! And let’s get down to business.

 

Let’s skip past the bargaining, depression and testing. Assuming you finally accept it, how can you deal with your impending departure? This death threat.

 

The Other Side

 

Which brings us to a question you might now take seriously: what happens when you die?

 

This is where we talk about a map of the multiverse. Because, let’s face it, we live in a multiverse. 

 

Not the kind of multiverse the scientists talk about–various physical worlds with radically different physical laws. That’s so yesterday when you die–because death means physical realms are no longer the point.

 

No, the multiverse is about the kinds of dimensions that make up reality––the physical, the non-physical, the physical integrated with the non-physical, the spatial, the non-spatial, the biologically living, the non-living, the time-bound of the physical kind, the time-bound of the non-physical kind and a lot more.

 

I know, I know. You say, there’s no proof of dimensions other than those we encounter on Planet Earth. And nothing happens “after” death. It’s Poof! And we vanish. Never to be seen again.

 

Boy, I wish you were right! But, nope, there are no final exits, no “end of the matter.”

 

Sorry to say, there’s a final reckoning.

 

A “phase transition” of a final kind.

 

How do I know?

 

You’ll see.

 

But, first, fasten your seatbelts folks.

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About the Author

 R.A. Varghese

 R.A. Varghese is the author and/or editor of various books on the interface of
science, philosophy, and religion. His Cosmos, Bios, Theos, included
contributions from 24 Nobel Prize-winning scientists. Time magazine called
Cosmos “the year’s most intriguing book about God.” Cosmic Beginnings and
Human Ends, a subsequent work, won a Templeton Book Prize for “Outstanding
Books in Science and Natural Theology.” His The Wonder of the World was
endorsed by leading thinkers include two Nobelists and was the subject of an
Associated Press story. He co-authored There is a God―How the World’s Most
Notorious Atheist Changed His Mind with Antony Flew (a book translated into
Spanish, Portuguese, Korean, Russian, and Arabic). His The Missing Link
(2013), includes contributions from three Nobel Prize winners and scientists
from Oxford, Cambridge, Harvard, and Yale. Varghese was a panelist at the
science and religion forum in the Parliament of World Religions held in
Chicago in 1993 and an invitee and participant in the Millennium World Peace
Summit of Religious and Spiritual Leaders held at the United Nations in August
2000. Varghese has been interviewed on numerous radio and TV shows. He has
also been profiled in different print publications.

 

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Overcoming Cerebral Palsy, Abandonment, and Poverty

 

Nonfiction / Biography

 

Date Published: August 29, 2025

 

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In a world where resilience shines through adversity, “Buddy: Overcoming
Cerebral Palsy, Abandonment, and Poverty” offers a moving portrait of a life
lived against the odds. Written by a retired radiologist who unexpectedly
discovered the power of storytelling, this book chronicles the extraordinary
experiences of Buddy, a man with Cerebral Palsy who has defied societal
expectations and personal challenges.

The narrative begins on a seemingly ordinary summer bike ride, where
Buddy’s remarkable spirit first captured the attention of his fellow
cyclists. Despite facing the trials of abandonment and poverty, Buddy’s polite
demeanor and thoughtful presence soon revealed the depth of his journey. As
conversations around the picnic table echoed the desire to share his story, a
reluctant author was born. With the encouragement of friends, family, and a
determination to honor Buddy’s incredible life, the author embarked on a
mission to bring this inspiring tale to light.

Through a series of heartfelt interviews, we delve into Buddy’s memories
that trace back to early childhood, uncovering a treasure trove of experiences
that illuminate his unyielding strength. With contributions from friends who
painted the backdrop of his life, this book is not just a biography; it’s a
testament to the human spirit’s ability to overcome.

“Buddy” is a compelling read for anyone who believes in the power of
perseverance and the importance of sharing our stories. Join the author as he
takes you through the highs and lows of Buddy’s life, revealing the
beauty of friendship, the struggle for acceptance, and the enduring hope that
shines through even the darkest of circumstances. Discover why, “If not me,
then who?” is a question that resonates deeply within all of us.

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Chapter 1: Learning to Ride a Bike

      Why can’t I have a bike and learn to ride like all the other kids? 

     The thought swirled through eight-year-old Buddy Brown’s mind as he gazed longingly at the yard across the street that had multiple bicycles haphazardly strewn about. 

     It was a sunny summer morning in Sleepy Eye, Minnesota. The kind of day that starts cool, but by 10 AM, it’s so warm that all the kids in the neighborhood would come skipping outside. Minnesota youth know that they must capitalize on warm days because the weather is going to change in only a few short months. 

     Buddy was sitting on the front step of their trailer house, enjoying the warmth, listening to the birds, and observing the neighborhood. He couldn’t help but notice that the yard had a bike for each of the eight kids who were packed into the house, but he had none.

     Since Buddy’s family was poor, his father, Dewey, was always seeking the next good job. In the year and a half preceding 1972, the family had moved eight times. They cycled through Pepin, WI, and the Minnesota towns of Rochester, Watertown, Sleepy Eye, Circle Pines, and finally settled in Pillager. With the continual moves and tight finances, there was never money for Buddy to have a bike. 

     Sunday mornings were quiet in the mobile home park as many of the families were gone. No one was home in the house with all the bikes. Buddy shuffled across the street, cautiously studying the potential rides. He noticed the older kids had the cool banana-seat bikes. Since he had never ridden before, he picked out the smallest regular bike, which was purple with a black seat. He rolled it back to his house and managed to get his rigid leg across, getting seated while his feet touched the ground. Was this his chance to learn how to ride?

     In front of the trailer, a sidewalk made of pavers sloped toward the street. Even at age eight, Buddy was good with numbers. He calculated that if he would just count the number of pavers and extend his distance by one paver each time, he would soon know how to ride. He parked on the second paver and lifted his feet, whereupon gravity took over, and he promptly fell over. This routine was repeated several times until he realized he had to move forward before lifting his feet. Success came slowly and haltingly as his rides conquered three, four, then five pavers. 

     At the end of the pavers was a dead-end street, which was fairly quiet. He just rode out into it, not considering cars. By the time his rides consistently passed five pavers and continued halfway across the street, he called his stepmom, Wendy, to see what he had done. She erupted with whooping, hollering, and encouragement for him to raise his feet and put them on the pedals. Buddy didn’t realize that his legs were less flexible than those of the other kids. Even with stiff legs, he managed to get on the pedals and, after several tries, was able to push and keep the wobbly bike moving.

     When the neighbors came home, Buddy was excited and ran as best he could to tell them the news. The scrawny youth waddled and hopped since he couldn’t run as fast as the other kids, but he was still animated enough that they recognized his exuberance. The parents were friendly and gracious, encouraging Buddy to use a bike whenever their kids were not.

     Buddy never realized he had any physical limitations when it came to learning how to ride a bike. His legs did not flex well at the knees, and his Achilles tendons were tight and didn’t fully straighten out. He often walked on his toes with his heels off the ground. His right hand lacked fine motor movement, but he could still grasp the handlebars. His left hand was more adept. The bike he was riding had coaster brakes and no handbrake, so he was able to manage reasonably well. At this point in his life, no one had told him that he had cerebral palsy (CP).

      A week later, Buddy felt he was ready for a longer ride. He had put on several miles without pedaling, instead using the bike as a strider, following the other kids as they rode until he had acceptable balance. The trailer park was located between two hills. The entrance road had a long, downhill slope, with trailers parked parallel to the road, rather than perpendicular to it, as is typical in most parks. This resulted in a lower population density and reduced traffic. The blacktopped street split into a U-shape, with two dead ends at the bottom of the hill.

     Schwinn popularized the banana seat bike in the 1960s. It had high-rise handlebars and an elongated seat. The style was so popular that the high-rise bars were copied on a “chopper” motorcycle for the 1969 movie Easy Rider starring Peter Fonda. A neighbor, Jeff, two years younger than Buddy, owned a blue one and offered to share it. It was bigger and faster than the bike Buddy had borrowed earlier. Together, they schemed to take turns going to the top of the hill and riding down as fast as possible. The first two runs for each went well, giving a sense of exhilaration. 

     Riding up the hill the third time required him to stand up and rock his body side to side, straining to get enough power to the pedals for the climb. It was a hot, determined effort for Buddy with his chest heaving, legs burning, and damp perspiration on his forehead. After pushing off downhill, he felt a surge of elation as he sped up, moving fast enough that his skin cooled. The wind fluffed his hair and whistled in his ears while his hands shook with the handlebar vibrations. Of course, no one owned a helmet in 1972. 

     Confidence grew until he hit a speed bump. Buddy, who was unaware that he was not quite as coordinated as some of the other kids, crashed unceremoniously. It was a windmill fall with a blur of arms and legs fanning the air as he somersaulted to the pavement, striking his chin.   

                                                          

     The impact tore open a gash in his chin, leaving a warm stream of blood running down his neck, soaking the front of his t-shirt. Road rash burned on his elbows and knees. With adrenaline pumping through his body, Jeff sprinted to get Wendy.  Buddy stifled his whimpers as Dewey had preached toughness in all situations. His usual comment was, 

     “Go back and play. You’ll be alright.”

     The family had only one car, and Dewey had it at work, so pregnant Wendy had to go to the neighbors and plead for help. They readily agreed to give her a ride to the hospital and take care of her other two children while she was gone. 

     The Sleepy Eye hospital was small, having only one room devoted to emergencies. When they arrived, the room was empty until someone came from the nurse’s station in the hospital to help. No doctors worked full-time in the hospital, so there was a delay while she called in one of the general practitioners from his home.

     Buddy immediately noticed the sterile antiseptic smell and the bright lights as he entered the room. He bravely held back tears until someone mentioned stitches. With a shriek, he grabbed Wendy until her comforting hug and soothing words calmed him down. The nurse gently washed his chin and wiped his tears with a warm cloth. Buddy clenched his fists, stiffened, and bravely held still while the doctor deftly slipped a fine needle into the cut to inject an anesthetic. A burning sensation spread across his chin as the anesthetic took effect, and his skin became numb. Eight stitches later, he was finished, relieved, and happy to be on his way home.

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